I wrote a post on the story behind Beltane yesterday, which posed some questions for consideration. It is no secret that for me Beltane has always been triggering and confusing time and the idea of the celebrations never rang true.
Over the last week I have been receiving flashes of insights, which today led me to this woman and her article. Scotland, of course, is at the centre of it. Why am I not surprised? I am blessed with how the land always points me to the answers I can make sense of and directions for me to take.
Particular symbols that did come up was colour yellow, cuckoo bird. Getting married or engaged in May, in my own country traditions have always been considered bad luck (now this is confirmed here). Amazing similarity. It is not such a jolly time and not as simple as unite in a sexual act and let things bloom. It is a major transition through a portal into summer – an important time for crops, animals, community, etc. It is on par with the importance of Samhain (never had any confusion with that one). It’s linked with luck, money, prosperity, being careful with respect and honour of the season that’s coming (summer) and so much more.
It is about saying good bye for now to the winter deity, which is my matron goddess, who this year is refusing to go. I hear her.
Enjoy reading this article and hope you get something out of it. My view of Beltane is now changed and finally settled in me.
The Goddess connection finally happened at the end of last year and today is the end she called to me, or rather my need for her was strong, so I called for her.
FOCUS she said walking around me crossly, her blue body emanating freezing chill. Her absent teeth and croak language not understood by a human ear. She told me to put my head forward exposing the back of my neck. She made gestures suggestive of clearing a space and it felt good her fingers touching my skin. I heard loudly Lavender/Juniper berry and Lemongrass.
She continued walking and sat against a rock opposite me continuing to whisper words unknown to me under her breath.
I came out in tears from this short and intense encounter knowing the chakra Cailleagh pointed towards is blocked and I must apply the oils she spoke of to it for today and the rest of the week.
They all represent love, health, protection and purification – common attributes of these oils mixed together.
The chakra at the back of the neck or Ta Chui is associated with a sense of self, self-esteem, career and a place in the world. This resonates more than I can tell you. These are exact issues I am currently facing and filled with self-doubt and somewhat sadness about whether what I have achieved is somehow enough, am I enough? FOCUS, she said.
What I did differently this morning?
I played Celtic music and used Invocation and read out Celtic devotionals sitting at my Altar. It felt empowering somewhat and I felt the need within me to encounter the Goddess. When I closed my eyes holding on to the stone from the sacred land she came instantly. What a fascinating and beautiful being she is. It is impossible to describe. She smelt like earth and herbs with her bright blue skin and toothless mouth she wore a lot of animal bones and feathers in her attire. She was short and small, but her arms long stretching into another dimension.
Feeling humbled and clearly told. I believe she attempted to smile towards the end and said ‘Remember who you are…’
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