Planting a Love seed at New moon – new paradigm

New or Dark Moon is my favourite moon phase. During this time I always experience inner power, grace, quietness and softness the MOST. I often go through a period of sadness and reflection, which feels quite nice and somewhat necessary. It is a period I would describe as ‘licking my wounds’ while hibernating in the darkness of my soul with my inner light being present at the same time, very touching, awe-inspiring light. It is such an interesting energetic period for me that I find it is always productive in a way of new insights and processing of the old.

What is around me at present is the idea and my new understanding of love especially in relation to a male partner or a companion. There is a mixture of romance and also rejection of a partner for it is no longer needed I feel. It is a big shift in consciousness where I feel not only free and powerful in my own right, but I feel being with another, particularly who is not ready or on the same plane as you currently, will impair your development and growth and will slow down and dim your awesomeness, so to speak. It is sad times, as I process and release old conditions and ideas. It also feels liberating. I am not quite sure how this is all going to plan out, but to have received a completely new message about love, romance and partnership is for sure shaking things up deep within me and who knows where it will go. I am open to all that is meant to come through and prepared to receive the wisdom.

What is also coming through, as I literally feel my magic tingling in my fingertips is a need for a ritual and a spell and there is no better time, as now, New moon. With my redefined yet not crystal clear idea of love I am going to whip up some magic into whatever it will shape up to be. I feel it is needed in order to plant and ground that seed of love that I am creating. Something that will serve my highest purpose and also help others around me as a result whether we will receive clarity, resolution, a new surge of passion or a general relationship upgrade or nothing. Whatever it might be I am ready.

Redefined idea of love for me right now is coming through as – Love begins with yourself, it is a force that is very strong, it is a sensation you can taste in your mouth and feel running in your veins. You know this love, you had long felt it, got burnt by it, cried many tears over it as a result and you still in awe of the feeling of that love and connection. The kind of love you dedicate your life to. This is what you hold within no matter how it ended, wounded you or died all together in real life. It IS within you. You remember and know what it felt like as if it was yesterday. I am feeling it right now and can very easily recall it. Well, that feeling is in alignment with the source consciousness and love. The universe loves you and you love the universe. There is an exchange of love wisdom and immense power. It starts from you and when and if you choose to be with someone else and fall in love or decide to manifest that inner feeling of love outwardly on Earth, that is how you are going to express it, through expressing and sharing it with someone else. This is rare, I must say, in this earthly reality, at least I believe it at this point, but it is not impossible. Many chase this transaction and see it as only a dream and come up against obstacles again and again. On some level I can understand how this only looks like a dream when out of consciousness and direct experience. Many give up, but many don’t and continue to carry that belief that somewhere somehow the universe will send that one true love to them in order for them to express the love they hold within. It is a beautiful idea, but on the other hand, there is also no need for that other when you already hold the feeling within you and you know it and you are immersed in it and can be in it at any moment you want. Then there is no need for another, not really. You are powerful and in love with yourself and the universe and the idea of external love becomes extinct. THIS IS the new idea, an upgraded version of love…

My New Moon ritual will serve a purpose of, on one hand, evoking a response from the universe of what is coming up and what needs to be worked towards in a way of love/romance/relationship, and, on the other hand, to plant that seed of love actively with intention of, perhaps, reignite that feeling within even stronger so it gets magnified towards the Full Moon. It is sort of an experiment to see what grows out of the New Moon magic. I don’t even know what exactly I will be doing, as all my magic work is purely intuitive, but I am called and pulled very strongly to sit with all the insights and feelings that are being transmitted through me.

Why not do something awesome this New Moon yourself? Whatever you are going through why not sit with it and plant a seed of love or whatever it is you are experiencing right now or need answers to and see what grows.

Blessings!

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‘A heart in a cage’ dream

My intentions for this year is to attempt the process of releasing pain that had taken residence within my energetic bodies for a very long time. I have carried it all with devotion and protection. No one ever could or would be allowed to come in.

Expansion into love, beauty, softness and courage is a path I would like to step on this year. Here comes a challenge of not doing everything by myself, not suffering in silence and allowing someone else to show me love and helping me heal. My therapist has a job on her hands that’s for sure.

Last year I managed to learn and embrace the concept of not allowing MORE pain to come in through saying ‘no’ and standing much stronger in my power. It has been very hard, but did pay off in huge ways and I have been able to see and feel the difference in not filling up that ‘pain’ cup, which is inside, with more pain, suffering and negative vibrations. I had been a receiver and a carrier of other people’s traumas and tragedies as much as having my own grief and pain to look after. I learnt to live with it so well to the point it has become the most familiar and safe place to be. I just get pain, I know it, I can carry and hold a lot of it.

My dream last night demonstrated perfectly what is happening within and it shows progress and forward movement in my process. It is so striking that this image should come in already with such clarity of presentation. Things are about to start moving already and it is good news. My heart is in a cage, however, compared with last year when I could not feel, see or find my heart at all, I woke up trembling with my heart beating with such force in my chest I had to lie and absorb that movement for quite a while. It was one of those bitter/sweet experiences, in between joy and sorrow. Last year my heart was frozen, dead even and no amount of healing, meditating, going within would move it. Think Snow Queen, think all archetypes of the wounded feminine, which was once soft, but had to become hard to survive. It was incredibly painful just to be aware of the fact that the heart within me was not alive to the point I could not connect to my body, to the vibration of love, or anything that is softer rather than harder. I know all of these vibrational signatures, I used my intellect to connect with the knowing of it, therefore, through a cognitive understanding I could still function within the emotional realm, yet that disconnection from the physical and emotional bodies had been ‘heart breaking’. To me heartbreak is not only when you feel your heart breaking into million of pieces and you feel the pain physically, but to me, the even harsher tragedy is when you feel nothing at all and unable to connect to what you know is there, yet it is unreachable.

This time, my heart is alive and bleeding in my dream even though it is still in a cage. There might be a piece of glass wedged in it just on the bottom. Last night I could clearly see and feel it. I cried tears of sorrow and joy at the same time, as at least, I felt, saw and experienced my heart again. In a dream it came in a cage. It is not liberated just yet, but at least it is alive. The sensation of it was similar to when you are about to scream and it is stuck in your throat or you see a hand putting a key towards a keyhole, yet you stop right before. It is like that. It is not yet coming out…

What came with the image is a message of how the process is likely to unfold. It will be done with love, softness, courage and seeing beauty in every single thing. It will be done through liberating it, not saving or rescuing. Through giving and receiving love that cage door will begin to open. I will have to be with the bleeding of my own heart for a while, but it is a bitter sweet sensation to me and I know this is necessary to connect with the flow of energy again and it is now accessible. Blood is a sign of life, rebirth and I can feel the new current of life radiating through me. Within that bleeding heart there is love, there is beauty, there is courage and strength.

Heart in a Cage by MichaelFurre

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Self-love is NOT bad

We hear about self-love more and more these days in a sense that one must give oneself love in order to be able to give out into the world. There is a strong dissonance of energy between giving and receiving in the world generally. Often we are good at giving, but terrible at receiving. Sounds familiar? We have bought into the idea of unquestionable self-sacrifice and understand receiving as bad, selfish, not allowed and even shameful. What we do is simply abandon ourselves each and every time, tricking ourselves into believing we are doing something right. We abandon our own internal system of guidance, which, if only we listened, would move us towards our highest self and our soul’s purpose. We listen to one internal voice, which stems from years of internalised belief that we are bad if we don’t give out fully and we are not good enough if we allow ourselves to receive. By listening to one voice, we ignore another, which is our intuitive guidance of the soul carrying messages of love and compassion. We rationalise why something makes us feel good, something that comes from inside, no, we don’t have time to stop and listen, we must go on with doing and giving and often making ourselves invisible and ill in the process.

This cruel conditioning seems to be ruling so much of our existence and robbing us of health, validation, recognition and sanity. Why is that? We are all part of one whole, one source of the Divine energy, which is unconditional love, yes, that’s right, YOU are divine and YOU are love, so fill your cup up full and stop emptying it so readily under the illusion that you must do that… Learn to receive in equal measures to giving and rock that sacred Feminine and Masculine like we were meant to. It seems to be the hardest task for almost all to re-learn self-love, to understand that we can not separate from ‘we are here’ and ‘they are there’. It is all one and we are built from the same material.

On the other side of the dilemma is that our soul’s purpose are abandoned through us abandoning our voice of love, our voice of intuition, we become unwell physically, emotionally, spiritually, because we often look for love, acknowledgement and validation in the wrong places. We look outwards and not inwards, because looking inwards is something we are yet to re-learn, something we are to get acquainted with all over again, something we knew well when we were born, but through human experience of conditioning we forgot. When in times of despair our soul’s song is not heard, we feel alone and we feel we might as well not exist.

Divine knows you, Divine is a part of you, and building a relationship with the Divine and having a conscious link with your intuitive guidance system are a sure road back to yourself, to the natural state of being as one with it all. Breaking away from chains of our conditioning is tough and in breaking away we break down, but it is in breaking down we find a way towards the light.